How long can I go on?
I wear this mask
to show that I am strong
Everyone doesn't see
I'm a featherweight away
to losing all of me
I keep it all together
put on my plastic smile
I practice to be perfect
and drown my sorrows for awhile
As a child I would seek to hide
away from monsters at my door
when I wear the mask I have made
they don't recognize me anymore
If forever could be mine
I would still take my time
I would want to hold your hand
and only call you mine
If forever could I see
the stars earth and sky
the moon light above
would never see me cry
The distance that you made
placed the miles on my heart
only to lead you back to me
where we were from the start
I called you friend, but you betrayed me
I called you home, but you abandoned me,
I called you lover, but you never loved me
Father time has taught me well
I live for here and now
I'm glad to see you sorry
though it's sad because of how
When you'd fall I'd pick you up again
when you were alone, it was me who called you friend
when you cried, I never left your side and I held your hand
all these years, all these tears
now I'm bound by the time I spent
fighting to keep you here
Why do you haunt me in my dreams
and take all what's left of my sanity?
I just want you to hold me
and mean what you had told me
where is my lover, my best friend?
I tried so hard, through all these years
I faced those demons, all my fears
I fought so hard, despite all of the pain
I never left your side,
and danced with you, in the rain
