Last Dance

How long can I go on?

I wear this mask

to show that I am strong

Everyone doesn't see

I'm a featherweight away

to losing all of me

I keep it all together

put on my plastic smile

I practice to be perfect

and drown my sorrows for awhile

As a child I would seek to hide

away from monsters at my door

when I wear the mask I have made

they don't recognize me anymore

If forever could be mine

I would still take my time

I would want to hold your hand

and only call you mine

If  forever could I see

the stars earth and sky

the moon light above

would never see me cry

The distance that you made

placed the miles on my heart

only to lead you back to me

where we were from the start

I called you friend, but you betrayed me

I called you home, but you abandoned me,

I called you lover, but you never loved me

Father time has taught me well

I live for here and now

I'm glad to see you sorry

though it's sad because of how

When you'd fall I'd pick you up again

when you were alone, it was me who called you friend

when you cried, I never left your side and I held your hand

all these years, all these tears

now I'm bound by the time I spent 

fighting to keep you here

Why do you haunt me in my dreams

and take all what's left of my sanity? 

I just want you to hold me

and mean what you had told me

where is my lover, my best friend?

I tried so hard, through all these years

I faced those demons, all my fears

I fought so hard, despite all of the pain

I never left your side, 

and danced with you, in the rain