Rainbow Wings

Since she first came into this world  her mamma loved her little girl  she raised her best that she knew how  Taught her the lessons she knew anyhow  and from the time she learned to pray Momma would tuck her in and say,  Instead of reading you fairytales; that never happen anyhow, I'll tell you what my momma had told me, what happens when a rainbow gets her wings...  When a rainbow has her wings  then to reach you she would sing she would dance up with the moon to soar high above with you she would sail above the sky  painting music as she goes by yeah,when a rainbow has her wings you know she could do anything  As the years went slowly by momma sang this every night  and as the little girl she grew she never really thought this through until finally came the day when momma came of age and laying there with her last words  this is what momma said to her,  I was the rainbow with those wings and to reach you I would sing I loved to dance alone with you  at night under the moon  and count the stars among the sky every night as years went by you are a rainbow, now I pass along my wings  I know you can do anything..... When a rainbow has her wings  (I was the rainbow with those wings)  then to reach you she would sing  (and to reach you I would sing) she would dance up with the moon  (I loved to dance alone with you ) to soar high above with you  (at night under the moon ) she would sail above the sky  (and count the stars among the sky) painting music as she goes by  (every night as years went by)  yeah,when a rainbow has her wings  (now I pass along my wings) I know you can do anything.....  Since she first came into this world her mamma loved her little girl.....

february

The Snow it glistened like a brilliant sea of diamonds, twinkling, entertaining, on such a glorious day. A sky of crimson blue to match your newborn eyes. I cradled you so close, but nothing was as close as to you in my womb. You were sleeping, and your pillow was my heart. My mind is in a race. I have to make a plan. Your future taking place I'll map out the world for you, You deserve the very best, and only my best will do. You are my angel, my little girl, nothing could tear us apart. Forever make your pillow my heart, embroidered upon it is the day, when our eyes first met, the twenty second of February..........................

Iron Maiden

You're an old dog up to old tricks

you're so old school and simply useless

whatever made you think

that you could replace me

just take a good look

and maybe you'll see

you're a distempered mutt

an old tramp, a true infidel

and I am the Iron Maiden

 you better run for the hills

Cause my bodies Iron 

and my hearts on fire

and his heart burns for me

while I'm pumping iron

and my bodies solid

he's hard just for me

I'm his Iron Maiden

he calls me his Iron Maiden

and says he was made for me

Elizabeth Taylor

YOU

I can't find my quiet place

no peace or solitude

thoughts within my mind are loud

a conversation skewed

It's sink or swim

or do or die

a realm I live within

to be at home within myself

and not knee deep in sin

My thoughts are in a race it seems

no finish line nor rest

and with no line I cannot win

it makes me more perplexed

and even though I toss and turn

and have many sleepless nights

a world that's turned me upside down

to a wandering aimless muse

and until my search is through 

my soul is at unrest

Cause baby 

one moment in heaven with you

makes up for my lifetime of hell

one angel kiss from you

heals the scars where they dwell

your angel eyes, they mesmerize

and captivate my soul

your warm embrace, your handsome face

your blue eyes take me away

to that warm summers day

from my winter frozen heart

you melt the ice within my veins

and all that remains

is the warm pacific blue, in my veins....... there is you

You are my quiet place

a peace a solitude

my thoughts though often loud

are when only without you

to dive or swim

to soar or fly

to the heavens I'm akin

I am at home within myself

a home you dwell within

My heart is in a race it seems

no finish line nor rest

and with no line we always win

my love has never vexed

my heart it burns

for passionate nights

a world made upside down

these thoughts are so true

and all are of you

you are worth more then all the rest .....

I love you

Last Dance

How long can I go on?

I wear this mask

to show that I am strong

Everyone doesn't see

I'm a featherweight away

to losing all of me

I keep it all together

put on my plastic smile

I practice to be perfect

and drown my sorrows for awhile

As a child I would seek to hide

away from monsters at my door

when I wear the mask I have made

they don't recognize me anymore

If forever could be mine

I would still take my time

I would want to hold your hand

and only call you mine

If  forever could I see

the stars earth and sky

the moon light above

would never see me cry

The distance that you made

placed the miles on my heart

only to lead you back to me

where we were from the start

I called you friend, but you betrayed me

I called you home, but you abandoned me,

I called you lover, but you never loved me

Father time has taught me well

I live for here and now

I'm glad to see you sorry

though it's sad because of how

When you'd fall I'd pick you up again

when you were alone, it was me who called you friend

when you cried, I never left your side and I held your hand

all these years, all these tears

now I'm bound by the time I spent 

fighting to keep you here

Why do you haunt me in my dreams

and take all what's left of my sanity? 

I just want you to hold me

and mean what you had told me

where is my lover, my best friend?

I tried so hard, through all these years

I faced those demons, all my fears

I fought so hard, despite all of the pain

I never left your side, 

and danced with you, in the rain

                                                                                                                                               

Fallen Angel

Let this be my moment

as I sit here on my floor

with a pen in my hand

To be truly honest and

reveal myself

peeling back the layers

of broken stained glass.........

I never wanted to fall from grace

or get lost within this place

You were my only constant

and never let me down

so how did I become 

like an angel with broken wings?

how did I fall

and forget everything?

I want to go home

and be free from all this hell

the demons they chase me

allured by my love for you

so imminent are the hounds

to tarnish my crown of light

I take my quill and in my pain

I dip them in my ink of tears

my tattoos predestined

like celestial stars

both hiding and revealing

the underneath scars

I am cradled by the crescent moon

and I find no comfort there

I tip toe among the stars

and find no companion there

I miss the way we used to dance

and how you'd fill my soul

and even when I was alone 

I'd feel your kiss upon my cheek

and your hand holding mine

I miss you Lord

please stop this never ending fall

I miss your voice

I miss your smile

oh how I miss it all

I know I sit just outside the gate

please don't throw away the key

as I collect all my broken feathers

that were torn out of me

but I have learned to patch my wings

and sew and wash my gown

and though my halo has a tilt

I won't let others keep me down

and though my heart is torn

and I'm pierced and tattooed

I know that you love me

and my tears are in your hands

Even though I am lost

in the burdens of this place

I see traces of you everywhere I go

Someday you promise to return

and like a child I wait

In this night it gets so cold

I long for your warm embrace

You my only Master

You who brings me grace

my heart won't forget You

you are all I want and need

despite all my rebellious ways

your mercy means everything......

Elizabeth Taylor

May 20th 2011

A Hero

Today as I sit and ponder

my heart is filled with dread

when I think about the children

who's fathers are all but dead

Their absence may be physical

or mentally restrained

as the children play their part

and try to entertain

They act out at first with comedy

they will jump and run around

making silly faces

and be a circus clown

and when that ceases to avail

they begin to yell and shout

They mimic what they see and hear

and walk the streets about

A labyrinth before them

they are lost within their souls

their eyes without a sparkle

and lives without a role

The world needs a hero

to save our human race

and future generations

a father we must embrace

We need a man with character

one who values his own son

and one to be a leader

with dignity and fun

He will need to have the courage

and great integrity

reflecting morals and ethics

restoring the family

He's a hero without a cape

(often taking him for granted)

but he will always be there

and always open handed

to offer the child to hold

and guide them on their way

He will  always protect them

both every night and day..........

Elizabeth Taylor

May 20th 2011

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A Hero

Daddy

What did I say

and what did I do?

Why did you leave? What should I be

to let me live there along with you?

I cleaned up my room

and I made up my own bed

and I'm sorry when I had you

 repeat what you had said.

Daddy why did I have to go?

I'll be so much better

I can do better

just Daddy please don't let me go

I miss you so

I want you to know

I love you Daddy

I need you more then you'll even ever know

I'll start listening in my school

and I'll brush all my teeth

and I promise at dinner

I'll remember not to speak

I look at our pictures

and I see us wear a smile

can't we pretend, maybe

just for a little while.

We looked so happy

don't you think we had it made

but just like the pictures

my memories will slowly fade

can't we be a family

a normal family

what can I do, I'm a child

let's play pretend

don't let this end

even for just for a little while

I count up hundreds

of  little bounding sheep

it takes me that long

 before I can drift off to sleep

 and I pray up to God

I hope He hears my whispered prayers

that if I'm a good boy

maybe, I can meet you ,down the stairs

Daddy how do you sleep

when we are cold at night?

And how do you eat

when mommy has two jobs?

you know that ain't right.....

How do you offer 

another lady to take her place?

When I look at my mommy

I see the pain you put upon her face.

This isn't right

no it ain't right

we should be together, a family

this is so sad

and I am mad

how could you just abandon me?

I know that you moved on, you said

 you had to follow the ever green

and I know you never, ever

meant to be mean

but who's gonna protect me

from the bullies at my school?

and who's gonna untangle my rod

 and your old fishin' spool?

I don't know how to drive 

but I know how to walk away

you taught me daddy

that having a family doesn't pay

cause I remember 

how you packed up all my toys

and just like you sent us away

I left behind with you my joy

I looked out the window

you smiled and waved goodbye

you said that you loved me

but I know it was a lie

I don't wanna leave

I don't wanna leave

now I feel so alone

I cry for you every night

every night

Why do you never, ever phone?

I'll be so much better

I can do better

I promise not to spill my milk

don't leave me daddy

don't go away daddy

I'll be like you, someday I will

remember how you promised me 

that you'd teach me how to swim

but mommy keeps on cry'n

and I don't know how to deal with it.

Now here I stand 

I'm all grown up, and I'm a man

I'll always be alone

you say you regret

I'm sure, I bet,

you wished that you had phoned

So, stop wasting my time, cause this is my time

now I don't wanna see you cry

 you had your chance

and your negligence

taught me how to say goodbye........

Elizabeth Taylor

April 17/11

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Rhythm

The sweet scent of rain

on a cool July night

moon beams across the room

and blankets me with light.

I gaze out my window

a breeze then kissed my cheek

filling me with wonder

unable then to speak

I sit upon my bed

and gaze up at the sky

the stars map out the universe

now wishing I could fly.

The crickets fill my ears

with their soothing bedtime song

my curtains dance in time

with the whistling wind along.

I tap out the measure

and shuffle with my feet

and notice all in harmony

with my heart beat.

It then leads me to wonder

is this what God had planned

for everything to be in rhythm

when He created man.....

Elizabeth Taylor

April 8/11                

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