Daddy

What did I say

and what did I do?

Why did you leave? What should I be

to let me live there along with you?

I cleaned up my room

and I made up my own bed

and I'm sorry when I had you

 repeat what you had said.

Daddy why did I have to go?

I'll be so much better

I can do better

just Daddy please don't let me go

I miss you so

I want you to know

I love you Daddy

I need you more then you'll even ever know

I'll start listening in my school

and I'll brush all my teeth

and I promise at dinner

I'll remember not to speak

I look at our pictures

and I see us wear a smile

can't we pretend, maybe

just for a little while.

We looked so happy

don't you think we had it made

but just like the pictures

my memories will slowly fade

can't we be a family

a normal family

what can I do, I'm a child

let's play pretend

don't let this end

even for just for a little while

I count up hundreds

of  little bounding sheep

it takes me that long

 before I can drift off to sleep

 and I pray up to God

I hope He hears my whispered prayers

that if I'm a good boy

maybe, I can meet you ,down the stairs

Daddy how do you sleep

when we are cold at night?

And how do you eat

when mommy has two jobs?

you know that ain't right.....

How do you offer 

another lady to take her place?

When I look at my mommy

I see the pain you put upon her face.

This isn't right

no it ain't right

we should be together, a family

this is so sad

and I am mad

how could you just abandon me?

I know that you moved on, you said

 you had to follow the ever green

and I know you never, ever

meant to be mean

but who's gonna protect me

from the bullies at my school?

and who's gonna untangle my rod

 and your old fishin' spool?

I don't know how to drive 

but I know how to walk away

you taught me daddy

that having a family doesn't pay

cause I remember 

how you packed up all my toys

and just like you sent us away

I left behind with you my joy

I looked out the window

you smiled and waved goodbye

you said that you loved me

but I know it was a lie

I don't wanna leave

I don't wanna leave

now I feel so alone

I cry for you every night

every night

Why do you never, ever phone?

I'll be so much better

I can do better

I promise not to spill my milk

don't leave me daddy

don't go away daddy

I'll be like you, someday I will

remember how you promised me 

that you'd teach me how to swim

but mommy keeps on cry'n

and I don't know how to deal with it.

Now here I stand 

I'm all grown up, and I'm a man

I'll always be alone

you say you regret

I'm sure, I bet,

you wished that you had phoned

So, stop wasting my time, cause this is my time

now I don't wanna see you cry

 you had your chance

and your negligence

taught me how to say goodbye........

Elizabeth Taylor

April 17/11

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