Daddy

What did I say

and what did I do?

Why did you leave? What should I be

to let me live there along with you?

I cleaned up my room

and I made up my own bed

and I'm sorry when I had you

 repeat what you had said.

Daddy why did I have to go?

I'll be so much better

I can do better

just Daddy please don't let me go

I miss you so

I want you to know

I love you Daddy

I need you more then you'll even ever know

I'll start listening in my school

and I'll brush all my teeth

and I promise at dinner

I'll remember not to speak

I look at our pictures

and I see us wear a smile

can't we pretend, maybe

just for a little while.

We looked so happy

don't you think we had it made

but just like the pictures

my memories will slowly fade

can't we be a family

a normal family

what can I do, I'm a child

let's play pretend

don't let this end

even for just for a little while

I count up hundreds

of  little bounding sheep

it takes me that long

 before I can drift off to sleep

 and I pray up to God

I hope He hears my whispered prayers

that if I'm a good boy

maybe, I can meet you ,down the stairs

Daddy how do you sleep

when we are cold at night?

And how do you eat

when mommy has two jobs?

you know that ain't right.....

How do you offer 

another lady to take her place?

When I look at my mommy

I see the pain you put upon her face.

This isn't right

no it ain't right

we should be together, a family

this is so sad

and I am mad

how could you just abandon me?

I know that you moved on, you said

 you had to follow the ever green

and I know you never, ever

meant to be mean

but who's gonna protect me

from the bullies at my school?

and who's gonna untangle my rod

 and your old fishin' spool?

I don't know how to drive 

but I know how to walk away

you taught me daddy

that having a family doesn't pay

cause I remember 

how you packed up all my toys

and just like you sent us away

I left behind with you my joy

I looked out the window

you smiled and waved goodbye

you said that you loved me

but I know it was a lie

I don't wanna leave

I don't wanna leave

now I feel so alone

I cry for you every night

every night

Why do you never, ever phone?

I'll be so much better

I can do better

I promise not to spill my milk

don't leave me daddy

don't go away daddy

I'll be like you, someday I will

remember how you promised me 

that you'd teach me how to swim

but mommy keeps on cry'n

and I don't know how to deal with it.

Now here I stand 

I'm all grown up, and I'm a man

I'll always be alone

you say you regret

I'm sure, I bet,

you wished that you had phoned

So, stop wasting my time, cause this is my time

now I don't wanna see you cry

 you had your chance

and your negligence

taught me how to say goodbye........

Elizabeth Taylor

April 17/11

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Rhythm

The sweet scent of rain

on a cool July night

moon beams across the room

and blankets me with light.

I gaze out my window

a breeze then kissed my cheek

filling me with wonder

unable then to speak

I sit upon my bed

and gaze up at the sky

the stars map out the universe

now wishing I could fly.

The crickets fill my ears

with their soothing bedtime song

my curtains dance in time

with the whistling wind along.

I tap out the measure

and shuffle with my feet

and notice all in harmony

with my heart beat.

It then leads me to wonder

is this what God had planned

for everything to be in rhythm

when He created man.....

Elizabeth Taylor

April 8/11                

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Starting Over

I want to start all over

I want to start anew

if I could start right now

this is what I would do.

I would change my name to Shannon

and maybe grow my hair,

I would gain a lot of confidence,

and have no history there.

My life would be exciting,

my future bright and warm,

the possibilities are endless,

my control with shape and form.

I would start with lots of wisdom

my choices slow to use

and everyone would respect me

yeah, that's what they would do.

I would like to be different,

an icon for all time,

someone they would remember,

saying she's a friend of mine.

I would start each day smiling,

open my curtains with a twirl,

singing praise and glory,

saying "good morning to you world."

Yeah, if I could start all over,

I would not be the same,

if I could start right now,

I would start with my name.

Elizabeth Taylor

Jan/2011

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Mary Jane

I hate you Mary Jane

You ruined my whole life

You robbed me of my daddy

and I couldn't be a wife

I hate you Mary Jane

You are the biggest of all whores

Seducing all the men

and I'm left with no more

You took away my father

You took away my son

You took away my husband

What else could I have done

I watched you day by day

take more of their soul

Chipping their identity

their hearts an empty hole

I hate you Mary Jane

but this is what I know

that I can burn much longer

and your ashes quickly go

I hate you Mary Jane

I will fight you to the end

I will pluck you like a weed

......on that you can depend

Elizabeth Taylor

Jan 8/11

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